How I really feel

When you wear a condom
None of your beeswax 
No I'm better off
You're not fit to lick my boots
You're just a trashy Mexican
From the slums of Houston
I totally tried so hard to swing with you
Now I'm back on sls
And just like before they're all over me
Do you even know Patrick Bateman?
Street trash pond scum
Slumming it when you can't tell me how you really feel that proved my point
 No I'm better off wo
I don't miss you just your cock
I spoiled you too gave everything you asked
But you never deserved it
You and I would have never crossed paths had I not made it happen
I would have just continued to live above you forever
I knew it was trouble crossing that class line
I know why you always have me such a cold shoulder 
Bc you're afraid of real chick like me
But I threw you a bone just for fun
I'm high quality fool
Not like your outside the loop trash heaps
Amber I knew she was straight slore every time I looked at her
She's got a skinny twat I know
Yucky
I know you fucked that pathetic blonde too
There was some fucked up shit going on with her face
She might be debillitated I'm not sure
You're standard are really high 
I know you'll fuck anything that moves
Even a super obese outed lesbo with trashy dyed hair
I know some worthless petite brunette ruined you but
That's no fucking excuse to behave so disgusting the way you do
The fact that you love fucking other men tells me your not a real man
Your lonely and confused I don't believe there's any such thing as bisexual man
Bc men fucking other men is just nothing but homo. 
No matter how you fucking look at you like cock and you fuck women just bc you cAn 
Bc you're ashamed of what you really are 
You have to hide it and cover it up with to s of women the trashier the better
You think that's hot?
It's not
It's sad to me
That's why you can't marry a woman
Bc no woman would have you
I'm just a super real chick and I respected your decisions 
But that means we do not fuck or even speak bc you are not on my level and you never were
I'm better than you you're dumb as a rock and easily manipulated
Did you fuck any guys in your frat?
Did those college boys do you dirty ?
What about your loser frisbee gold friends do they know you like to bend over for old fat fart man
You live with so many lies it's rotted you out your just a shell full of toxic waste
You got super fuckibg lucky I didn't have my guard up bc I crushed so hard and I was so helpless against you.  
I threw myself at you bc I was already so in love and you let it happen 
I know no other option crossed your mind but to take advantage and use me up
But I know now what you did was despicable for a man your age with a girl like me
I was so innocent compared to you it was hardly my decision
Oh and by the way I fucked like the second night I was in ny not like you told the truth either
Your like a snake hiding in the grass waiting to poison the first sweet soul you come across
This was a fucking relationship by the way I haven't looked at anyone else in years
You told yourself it was nothing but you knew all along I wanted you and no one else
That counts
And checking up on me getting jealous when all I wanted was to please you
I know the only way to give you taste of your own medecine is never to show you my face again
We will never just bump into one another bc we don't run in the same circles you way out there and me living up here
You will be wishing you married me in ten years time I know you'll come back begging
Bc I'm going to age flawlessly and your gutter trash heap will be decaying at a rapid rate of speed
You're not that hot I just have a taste for weirdos
You have no discernible jawline so that speaks for itself
I feel sorry for you bc you would have been so happy with me had you been real man
I make you look so fuckibg good sm
And you're so fucking idiotic clueless that you can't even see that
You just want to destroy and reap rewards
It's like narrow minded in a way you don't even see the whole picture of what's going on bc you did no research just got stuck with the trophy and sent home
Real man would have realized by now I'm perfect in every way and I adored you so you got so fuckibg lucky
It's good we didn't tho bc I know I would be so bored of your dumb mouth before a year was out
You're feminine too ok not masculine you had long flowy hair I saw you having it done at the barber shop like a fuckibg weirdo
And you're not fucking normal two hundred plus partners says you're totally over compensating
For what you're homo inside
You're useless you'll never earn over a hundred thou in your life
Bc you're just another trashy Mexican from slums uuof Houston 
Not like me I'm a thoroughbred
Ok that's enough go away

i wrote a poem to my brand new ex

You know Patrick Bateman Sexy man?

Thats my hubby

you know why Sm?

Bc I love dangerous men.
too much which is why im so obsessed with you.

But its good to know that after all this time
theyre kinda just my thing

But not for a serious relationship

Dangerous men are too toxic

Thats why you cant be with them

I should have learned this lesson in high school

but im kinda known for my destructive behavior

my parents forbade me to see you a year ago

but its like i just cant quit

need to grow up and stop making stupid mistakes

or find more maxximum danger

but that would be repeating the self destructive cycle.
i think i need to take a break\
\
ive been so out of control with you for too long

killing time

not trying

so i hope this finds you well\

but im promising myself to try harder I will be better i know

Im prude now Sm youve frightened me into it

i was thinking go for maxx danger like a black guy or something

But I think i should just cool it with the danger act
ive had enough
i'm gonna try so hard to go away so dont be texting me in few weeks time

you know you are irresistable to me and you taught me many things in life

but im seriously gonna try

Until feb 8th then i will wish you happy bday but that is it ok

ok so be bad for me while i try to be good

youre so good at it

i do love you Sm but i just need to stop bc like I said the other day

youre the only person i fuck repeatedly and thats not good for me

im sure you hated hearing that

any other real man would be happy to hear but thats just you

youve no need to come back checking up bc i wont be fucking anyone till im convinced hes my soulmate

So unless you want that to be you just leave me alone and ill try so hard to do the same

It was good Sm really good every time ok i loved it. <3